Clearing #1: I’ve been drinking since 6:30 and it’s now 11:30

Clearing #2: I’ve had enough beer to be intoxicated

Clearing #3: Don’t worry, I didn’t drive :)

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So here’s the thing. I’m in love with like 10 different people right now. Yes, I’m drunk, yes, I’m feeling very good and feeling no pain. But I can honestly say I am in love with at least 10 different people right now.

As of late, I’ve come to know my friends in a different way than I’ve ever known… I’ve become closer, more intimate, more truthful, more open with my friends, and I love it… though there is a part that gets confused in the process. I’m finding myself falling for my friends, falling in love with parts of them, falling in love with the pieces of their personalities that I have longed for…

I went to dinner with some friends tonight, followed by dart night, and even thought I was a bit inebriated, I saw friends who I’d met only a handful of times before (some of them even less than a handful) and upon seeing them again, I felt genuine, true love and appreciation for them. They each have these unique bit and pieces of their personality that I am completely enamored with. Each of them have personality traits and physical traits that lead me down the road of thinking “Gee, I could really, truthfully, honestly be in love with this person” which is super confusing because I’ve been feeling that with a bunch of my friends lately. Maybe I’m just lonely, but I don’t think it’s that.

I think a big part of it is that I have been meeting people and connecting with my friends on an entirely new level. I’m opening my heart, I’m opening my perspective, and I’m looking at the world with a new view… if anything is possible in love, what is possible? Could I fall for my best friend? Could I fall for the guy I just met yesterday? Could I fall for someone who doesn’t fit any mold that I’ve previously thought was “my type”?

Could everything I ever considered about love be completely upside down?

Who knows.

All I know is that I have had the best time with my friends - some of it surprising, some of it not, and all of it wonderful.

In all of this, I know one thing to be true and real - I have the best friends on the planet, I have a life that is absolutely amazing and unpredictable, and I couldn’t be happier about all of it. Perhaps this will all lead to a relationship even more intimate and amazing - and perhaps not. Either way, it’s wonderful, and I wouldn’t trade it for the world.

XOXOXOXO

Andy