I’ve been finding myself increasingly contemplative lately (as if you couldn’t tell from my blog posts?) but what is strange to me, is that it’s not surrounded by some bad event that has/is happening in my life. Normally my self-identity-seeking and quiet-contemplative monkey-mind come out when some trauma or soon-to-occur trauma is present. This time it’s different - I’m not being contemplative as means to deal with a breakdown, but more so as a means to create something new in my life.

I feel as though this point in my life, right now, is one of the most important and defining moments in my life. I feel and see myself creating and latching on to those things that will propel me through the rest of my life. Up to this point it feels as though I’ve been a tag-a-long in my own life. This moment now, this set of singular and sequential moments that I am experiencing right now are all leading me and my life in a new direction. It is clearer than yesterday and yet still foggy.

I’m not sure what the future lies ahead just yet… but it is getting created now and I will no longer be a back-seat driver in my own life.

So yes, I am contemplative. Yes, I am scared. No, I still don’t know exactly where I am going.

But, I am truly thrilled to be on this journey, thankful for each and every day, and thankful for all the glorious and wonderful people who I am able to keep near and dear to me. Thanks to all of you.

Hugs, kisses (where appropriate) and goodnight. I’ll see you all in the next blog post, this little bear is off to bed.